Well, here I am. My oh my, it has been a long time since I wrote a blog. Life has hit me and turned me sideways the last few years. Do you ever feel like that, like you've just hit a brick wall?
Like you've come to a point where either you get up on this horse, again, or just let life trample you? And what's crazy is, I thought I knew better. I thought, this time, it would be different.
And so, I got up there, all big headed and excited about my own ideas, and did exactly the same thing I always do. Try to control everything. Try to handle everything at the same time, try to manage all things at once. Then was surprised when I got bucked off and the horse ran right over the top of me.
Sometimes you have to sit down in the dirt for a little while, looking up at this big beast and wonder, how will I have the courage to get back up there again? Well, staying down in the dirt has stopped being an option for me.
A few of the tools I have learned while down here, however, have been invaluable. It's important to breathe. Take one breath at a time. One task at a time. Everything does not have to be done in one day. Sometimes you have to recognize that you can't be everything to everybody until you are something to yourself.
Write things down. Your head can't hold it all, and even if it could, it would get very crowded in there. Delegate. There are people around you who can help you, if you let them. Stand up, dust yourself off, then, stop trying so hard to handle the horse.
Make friends with the horse, with this life you've been given. Look it in the eye and acknowledge that it is yours, and no one else's. It's okay to look yourself in the eye and say, "I love you." You don't have to wait for anyone else to love your life for you to take the reigns, get back on, and be at ease with it, with yourself.
So, yeah. I'm back. I'm breathing. I'm taking it one step at a time, one day at a time, but with much more respect this time. Respect of myself, respect of my dreams, respect of my time, respect of my life.
Like you've come to a point where either you get up on this horse, again, or just let life trample you? And what's crazy is, I thought I knew better. I thought, this time, it would be different.
And so, I got up there, all big headed and excited about my own ideas, and did exactly the same thing I always do. Try to control everything. Try to handle everything at the same time, try to manage all things at once. Then was surprised when I got bucked off and the horse ran right over the top of me.
Sometimes you have to sit down in the dirt for a little while, looking up at this big beast and wonder, how will I have the courage to get back up there again? Well, staying down in the dirt has stopped being an option for me.
A few of the tools I have learned while down here, however, have been invaluable. It's important to breathe. Take one breath at a time. One task at a time. Everything does not have to be done in one day. Sometimes you have to recognize that you can't be everything to everybody until you are something to yourself.
Write things down. Your head can't hold it all, and even if it could, it would get very crowded in there. Delegate. There are people around you who can help you, if you let them. Stand up, dust yourself off, then, stop trying so hard to handle the horse.
Make friends with the horse, with this life you've been given. Look it in the eye and acknowledge that it is yours, and no one else's. It's okay to look yourself in the eye and say, "I love you." You don't have to wait for anyone else to love your life for you to take the reigns, get back on, and be at ease with it, with yourself.
So, yeah. I'm back. I'm breathing. I'm taking it one step at a time, one day at a time, but with much more respect this time. Respect of myself, respect of my dreams, respect of my time, respect of my life.